Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Music

I love music just about as much as I love makeup, Christmas, weddings, hanging out with family and friends...I really love music. I can't dance well, and I can't sing AT ALL, but both fascinate me. Growing up I don't really remember my parents listening to music very much but they did introduce me to musicals. I loved watching musicals...anything that included people singing or dancing I loved. I remember hearing the emotion in their voices and seeing the emotion in their movements and thinking it was amazing...how could they get me to feel the same things just by watching??? I was hooked.

As I got older my love for music continued...it helped me get through so many things in my life. I have to imagine many other people can say the same thing, at least I hope they can hold the same joy as I do just thinking about certain songs. I love that I can think of a memory and almost immediately the song that was apart of that memory pops in my head. Or if you hear a song it can instantly take you back to the time, place, and emotion you felt when you listened to that song the most. I don't know of anything else like it. Just hearing certain songs I am instantly 16 again and hurting from a break up, or if i hear another song I can close my eyes and smell the grass at soccer practice. Almost every emotion imaginable I feel upon hearing certain songs. My world without music would have been a much harder world...it is my therapy.

I could go on forever about this, but this picture below is something I created that will actually be published in a book (along with artwork from my mom...details to come later) I was supposed to creat something that depicted "Live like you're dying" and this is what I came up with....This is a picture of me on the subway for the first time and I felt more free and happy at that instant than I had in awhile. When I was looking for a picture that could go with this post I came across this one and instantly knew it also depicted the way music makes me feel, completely alive!!What's your favorite song that makes you feel things and remember memories you forgot all about???


Monday, June 14, 2010

Home

First of all I really need to express the gratitude I have for all of the amazing and wonderful comments I got about my previous post. It made me feel great to see how it touched so many of you...it really is just what i think and feel at weddings and probably always will. Sometimes it takes another persons point of view to suddenly see something in a different light. I love asking people what they think about things because it helps me to see things in ways i may not have seen them before...so never be afraid to ask too many questions, you may learn something!

I came across this first picture of my parents house from my moms camera. I thought it was so pretty. This picture reminds me of so many things...looking out the window in grade school hoping to wake up to this much snow on the ground and a glorious snow day. It reminds me of Christmas...which i love. My mom decorates the crap out of our house and i have always thought our house is the perfect Christmas card house. Just looking at this picture makes me happy and smile.

And here is another picture of our house...this one is taken in the summer and makes me equally happy. There is just something about going home to a house where so many memories were made, where you grew up, where you cried and laughed and still continue to make those memories. Home is being comfortable, home is one of the best things in the entire world and I am so lucky to have such a great home filled with people that are just as great!



Tuesday, June 8, 2010

weddings

So, I haven't posted a blog in awhile...I need to jump back in to it. I guess I didn't realize anyone was reading it until I started talking to people and they let me know they actually enjoyed reading this. It was strange, but seriously very nice to know that anyone even cared about what i had to say. So for that, i will try and update this more often.

The topic of this blog is weddings. For those of you that know me, and have known me for awhile, know that I love...love. You also know that i have been burned a time or two (and have probably burned myself as well) and you may think attending a wedding would be something i don't look forward to, or something i get sad about. Of course part of me does get a little sad thinking about things, but mostly i think about weddings and simply feel...happy. I love weddings...i always have, and i think i always will. i think i could go to a complete strangers wedding and still look around and be completely wrapped up in the swirling emotions of excitment and joy that most every wedding has surrounding it.

Weddings are such a hopeful time. You surround yourself with the people that have made you who you are, the people that have watched you grow, the people that have helped you grow. you invite the people that you just simply enjoy, the people that love you and want nothing but the best for you. there is a room, or a beach, or like this past weekend; a beautiful deck looking over mountains filled with people that are all there for the same reason...to smile, to be reminded that love does exist, to be hopeful, to look at their friends and family and to be reminded of how special and quick life really is,and to celebrate a couple that has decided it is worth it to promise to one another in front of everyone that they want to spend the rest of their lives together. At least that is what i think about at weddings. I think about past weddings i have been to...all of them different, but all of them the same. I think about what my parents or grandparents weddings must have been like, and imagine it would have felt the same way had i been sitting there watching their wedding. i would have smiled, been hopeful, laughed and felt like something was right in the world...even if only for that little slice of time.

It reminds me of a song by John Mayer called "The Heart of Life". Some of the lyrics of that song go like this:

Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
no it wont all go the way it should,
but i know the heart of life is good.

To me, at weddings, i am reminded that no matter what has happened in my life, no matter who i may not be getting along with, no matter how tired or stressed or busy i may be...i go to a wedding and for that moment i am reminded that the heart of life really is good. weddings are, and always have been so magical to me because they bring people together from all over the place to celebrate something we forget about all too often...love.

Congratulations Amy and David...it was a beautiful wedding!!! Despite the altitude it was so great to be together with all of my wonderful, beautiful, and hilarious friends.