Wednesday, December 8, 2010

I am different!

The reverb10 challenge continues...if you are wondering why I keep answering tough questions every day check out www.reverb10.com It is a challenge to reflect on the past year and look towards the next. At any rate here is todays question:

December 8 – Beautifully Different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.

Wow...this challenge has proven to be the hardest for me to write. I find it incredibly hard to reflect on what I do that lights people up. My instinct is to call several of my friends or family and just ask them, but that would defeat the entire exercise because it's not really what they say but what I think that matters in this reflection. So...here goes:

When you are growing up you are taught that each person is unique and different and that's what makes each person so special...and I believe this to an extent. The older I have gotten and the more I have come to observe people (because I am overly observant) I have realized that people really aren't that different when it comes right down to the heart of life...which I find comforting. But as for me...the things that I am most proud of in myself and that light up the people I am closest to are so personal to each of the people I am close with.

Its those little moments in life...the moments I call my mom at 6:30 in the morning to tell her to look outside at the sunrise because the thought of her missing it just doesn't seem right...I'm pretty sure that lights her life up.

Or the moments I text my friend about our favorite show Glee...we don't really get to talk on the phone often or see each other in person but those texts are priceless and often hilarious (more her than me...she lights up my life with the hilarious things she says) and I would like to think she enjoys those as much as me, even the texts not about Glee!

Maybe it's the moments I call my dad whenever I need to make a serious (at least to me) life decision...his opinion means the world to me and I think deep down he might get a little light in his life by me still being 30 and calling for his advice...and dad if you are reading this I have finally learned you are normally/always right on the things that really matter :)

I might light up the life of my friends by my constant observations of people...including them. They hang out with me knowing that I will be the one that notices that orange belt the lady in the next bowling lane is wearing and they can talk to me about it when no one else seems to even see it. I am the one that will notice when they are abnormally quite and I will usually ask them if something is wrong...they can't really get away with much because I will notice. I think this is a good quality and I hope they find it different in a way that sheds positive light on our friendship.

i am different in the relationship I have with my sister and brother...we can have what some would find to be a horrible argument and within seconds be laughing and enjoying each others company. Maybe this isn't that different from other siblings out there, but when we argue we ARGUE...we get it out of our system and we don't usually apologize because we know if we have crossed a line it goes with out saying we are sorry. and when we are finished and have said what we need to say we are best friends again...that my friends is called unconditional love:)

When I stop and write about all the little moments that make me different and unique and help to put light in others lives...it makes me smile. Even though I still think most people are pretty similar when it comes right down to it, the small things...the things that really count, are the things that make us different. Not everyone has lived the exact life in the exact order with the exact small moments as me, so that makes me different. It makes me see things in a different way and I wouldn't change those exact moments, in the exact order my life has taken me because it has made me who I am today and I'm pretty happy with me!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Reverb1o challenge...community

December 7 – Community Prompt: Community. Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011?

I have tried really hard the past year to put myself in new situations and new communities. I really wanted to meet new and interesting people and create new experiences. One of the ways I discovered community was through a group called Columbus Young Professionals. ( www.cypclub.com ) I have not gotten as involved with this group as I would like to yet, but it is a perfect way to start becoming apart of a new community. Another way I have discovered community is by way of blogging. I began reading other amazing blogs and even became part of a great community on www.skirt.com as one of their official bloggers. It amazes me the wonderful community of bloggers out there and I have enjoyed every minute of reading other peoples experiences!

In the year 2011 I hope to dive deeper into both of the above named communities. I also hope to volunteer more...I often think about doing this but just haven't gotten my act together enough to devote time to this. Volunteering is so important and no excuse in the world is good enough to stop me from pursuing this in the new year!!!

Another community I hope to become apart of, and am VERY excited about comes to be by way of a new job I will be starting in a couple of weeks. Oakstone Health Center ( www.oakstonehealthcenter.com )is part of Oakstone Academy (a wonderful school) and I hope to dive deep into their community raising awareness for autism and making friends and connections every step of the way! Just writing about all of the ways I want to become more involved in community gets me super excited for the new year...2011 can't come soon enough!!!

Monday, December 6, 2010

Art...

December 6 – Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

The last thing I made was probably a birthday card. I know I made one for my grandma's birthday, but I am pretty sure I made a card for something else more recently. When I make these cards I usually use markers, colored pencils, photos, and quotes. I make cards rather than buying them sometimes because I enjoy doing it and it seems to show the appreciation or gratitude I have towards that person far better when I create it.

YES, YES, YES there are sooooo many things I want to make but just haven't cleared the time for it. I love art, and find it such an emotional release creating it. I envy my mom for this reason...she has an amazing space and gets to create art all day, every day if she wanted...so rewarding! Writing this post made me realize how much I need to make the time to create more!

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Reverb10 challenge continues...

December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

I let go of some of my maturity. My entire life I have always lived on a level of maturity that some people would probably describe as "playing it safe". I did what I thought I was suppose to do and made decisions based on logic. This past year I let go of some of that...I became less mature and I played life a little less safely. I had a blast doing this...getting drinks whenever I wanted with friends, buying random things without thinking overly logical about it. I went on trips, I went on dates, switched jobs, took a million pictures, enjoyed happy hours...And even though I turned 30 this year I felt more like I was turning 23!

My effort to be less mature resulted in a fun year, a year that I am pretty confident I needed after years of seriousness...but I have to say I am ready to be mature again! I think it suits me better..

Saturday, December 4, 2010

A year filled with wonder!

December 4 – Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

The first thing I did before I wanted to answer this question was to look up the definition of the word "wonder". In the dictionary is is defined as:

a cause of astonishment or admiration; rapt attention or astonishment at something awesomely mysterious or new to one's experience

This year started off with the ending to what has proven to be the hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my entire life...divorce. I know I haven't really addressed this time in my life specifically on my blog and I am not sure I will ever go in to very much detail because it is such a personal event and time period in my life..to speak openly about it burns my soul and spirit in ways that are indescribable. So, after going through a long, tough couple of years the end had finally been reached and the divorce was final within the first few days of the new year.

I was left with an entire year to gain back my sense of wonder in the world. This entire last year was just simply that...a year about searching for ways to cultivate wonder again in my life. It started with finding the wonder again in myself...that is never as easy at it sounds, but i think by stepping outside the experiences of the past and remembering all of the amazing things still left in my life I slowly started to realize I was still a pretty great person that had a lot to offer and I still had a lot of life left in me!

I will probably always be working on finding the wonder in myself completely...but the thing that is easier for me to see is the wonder in everyday life. This past year I seriously walked around finding wonder in EVERYTHING! I marveled, admired, and felt complete astonishment at the friendships I had and still have, I went on dates and found the wonder in meeting new people even if they weren't what I was looking for, I found the wonder in random things like snow...its so beautiful if you really stop and stand in it looking straight up into the sky and let it fall all over you: perfect! I found the wonder in becoming vegetarian...trying different foods and actually liking them!

This past year was all about cultivating a sense of wonder and in doing so I am pretty sure I fell back in love with myself and my life...which is a pretty great thing to do!

Friday, December 3, 2010

Reverb10..the ultimate challenge!

I came across this website by way of reading another one of my favorite websites ( http://www.37days.com/ ) It is called http://www.reverb10.com/ and it is this amazing writing challenge to reflect on this past year and manifest what's next to come. Each day for the entire month of December, leading up to the new year, they give you a writing prompt that causes you to reflect on 2010 and then to figure out what you want for the year to come. I came across this a few days late so I am just going to begin today. I encourage everyone to think about your answers to these questions and it may just open some doors or windows in to things you never really thought about...so here goes!


December 3 – Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).


I have to admit I had to look back on all the pictures I have taken over the past year to help me with this one. It is seriously hard to come up with just one moment that I felt most alive...but my first instinct in answering this was to say it was when I was in Colorado for my friend Amy's wedding. I'm not sure if it was the difference in altitude or the beautiful scenery, but something about that trip touched me and made me feel differently about life.


The specific moment that comes to mind is a simple one...in between the actual wedding ceremony and the reception my dear, sweet, life long friends and I headed back to our condo and sat around an old wooden table in the middle of the room. We threw off our shoes, remained in our wedding formal clothes, ate some chips, drank a few beers, listened to some music and enjoyed the moment.


I don't remember exactly what we talked about or how long we sat there, but none of that really matters now...it was a perfect example of real, true friendship...the kind of friends you don't make in a year. No, these are friendships that have developed over 20 plus years...these are the type of friends you would do anything for, you don't have to explain anything to..the kind of friendships that pick up right where they left off even if it's been months since the last visit. These are the types of friends songs are written about and movies are made about...the kind some people only dream about.


In my head that day was perfect...we laughed, we danced, we forgot about all of lives many stresses and we came together like we have so many times, only this time was a little different. This time was the first time I looked around the room and realized my friends and I were real life adults...we had jobs, families, bills to pay, things we had to get home to. I was most alive in that moment because I was more aware of time than I have ever been. For a brief moment I panicked as the realization of time struck me...the clock is always ticking but as we get older it seems to tick a little louder reminding us those perfect moments will become more precious as life gets shorter and shorter. I felt the most alive because I was simply reminded that life is short...and I am pretty certain that had my life ended right after that moment with those amazing friends sitting around an old wooden table eating chips I would have died a very happy women!!!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Thankful beyond words...but I'll try!

I have been so busy being 30 I haven't made much time to post any blogs. The holiday season has officially began and I cannot believe it is already December 1st!!!!! Thanksgiving has already came and went but I wouldn't feel right without telling you guys about how much fun I had over that holiday weekend. I hope everyone had as much fun as I did...but I am still trying to recover :) Thanksgiving morning my family and I hopped in the car and drove to Granville to run/walk the Turkey Trot 5k...it was a lovely morning filled with grey skies and rain, but I think we still all enjoyed ourselves.


I am so thankful for my amazing family words could never express how much I enjoy hanging out with them and having them in my life...thanks guys for doing this race with me(and thanks to my friend Natalie and her sister Valerie for joining us too)!!!



Thanksgiving day (after the race) my mom's side of the family, along with my dad's parents, came to our house for a Thanksgiving feast. Part of the reason I like Thanksgiving is to be able to see relatives we don't normally get to see or hang out with. The picture above is of my cousin Amy, Aunt Cynthia (my mom's sister), my mom, me, and my sister Molly...all of the girls from my mom's side of the family. These are people (along with Uncle Stan and my cousin Erin..who were also in attendance) that I don't get to see very often but it is so wonderful to feel the love when they are around. We can always just pick up were we left off and have a good time no matter...love that! I was also so happy to see my brother because I don't get to see him very often anymore since he moved and I was so thankful to see him smiling and happy!!!

Friday night after Thanksgiving we headed to Somerset, OH for the 2nd Annual West Village Pub Crawl....the picutre above shows us at pub #3. Last year Natalie, Kelly and I went to NYC and I started to realize how much everyone talked about the "villages". I got it in my head we weren't going to have fun until we went to one of those villages...and I was right the "villages" is where it's at! It was during this time that my cousin Kelly reminded us she lived in a village too and although it is a very small village with only 4 pubs (counting the American Legion) we created the West Village Pub Crawl...and I have a feeling it will continue for years to come :) We have a ball and I already can't wait for next year!

My weekend wasn't complete without heading to OSU campus to tailgate and cheer on the Buckeyes as they beat Michigan...I had so much fun I forgot to take any picures :( At any rate my long holiday weekend was awesome and I am sooo very thankful for the direction my life is headed. I am lucky for so many reasons and simply cannot wait to see where this year will take me and to hopefully continue to share it all with you! Now if I could just get my Christmas shopping done!!!!