Thursday, January 27, 2011

30 is the new black

A lady at work yesterday was talking to one of my younger coworkers about the fact that she was turning 26. The lady was explaining that she felt like her 20's were not nearly as great at her 30's (i am assuming she is in her 50's now) and how it seemed that in her 20's she was just really trying to figure out who in world she really was. By the time she experienced her 30's she was able to really enjoy herself because she had already figured herself out...and didn't have to make excuses or apologies for who she was.

I can completely relate to this...although I am not really that far in to my 30's I can already tell you that I like them better than my 20's. Don't get me wrong...living life in my 20's had some really great moments and I would love to relive a bunch of them, but for the most part I spent alot of time really trying to decide who it was I wanted to be. I spent so much of my 20's trying to be who i thought everyone else wanted me to be, who i was "supposed" to be. Now that I am a little older a certain calm has come over me...I know who I am and I am not afraid to show it, and I won't apologize for it either. I like who I am.

For the first time in a long time I can honestly say I am sincerely happy with myself and where my life is right now. I absolutely LOVE my job. The people I work with and their dedication and passion for what they do is simply amazing. I love what I am doing, and who I am doing it for. I wake up every morning and never once do I hesitate because I don't want to go to work (its usually because I am tired) I look forward to going to work everyday and that is something I have been searching for.

I am not in a relationship and for the first time in, well, forever...I am ok with that. I know people always say you can't really love someone else completely until you love yourself. I always thought that was probably true to some extent, but i am here to say it is absolutely true 100%. I have learned this from experience...how can you give yourself to someone else when you don't even really know who you are??? I am certain that when the man of my dreams comes along I will finally be ready and that idea alone makes me happy.

I have the best roommate in the world...to have a million cousins around that you love and enjoy hanging out with is awesome, and to live with one of those cousins who also happens to be one of your best friends is the best gift I could ever ask for. I love living with Kelly,and cannot be happier to be moving downtown to start another adventure!

The 20's were alot of fun..as Natalie and I have decided the year of 23 and 29 seemed to be the best, but I am pretty confident that my 30's are gonna be even better...30 is the new black, and I love the color black almost as much as pink so this is going to be good:)

Monday, January 17, 2011

Lessons learned from packing...

As I said in my previous post I am moving again...it feels like all I do is move...but this move is gonna be so fun. DOWNTOWN here we come!!! At any rate, with moving comes packing and so it begins. The only way to have fun with packing is to drink wine and really embrace the random things you have saved over the years. So many times when packing I find things and find myself reminiscing on all sorts of great memories. The picture below is me getting ready to pack with my "Big SL" wine glass Kelly got me for Christmas...SL=super love...it's from Cougar Town(one of the best shows ever!!)
So, like I said I always seem to find some great things while packing...but this time I was struck at several things in particular. This first picture is of a little notebook I kept while in high school...as you can see the date. I had forgotten all about this, but I guess I had written all sorts of song lyrics and quotes that at the all knowing age of 16, must have spoken to me. What I find sort of alarming is that while I read the quotes and things I had written at the age of 16 it was almost like my younger self was trying to give advice to my 30 year old self. To share a few of the ones that really left me feeling like i should take my own advice were:
"you never lose by loving, you always lose by holding back"
"in the darkest hour the soul is replenished and given strength to continue and endure"
"the journey in between what you once were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place"
"you were born with wings, why prefer to crawl through life?"
"true poets don't write their thoughts with a pen...they release the ink that flows from within their heart"
"watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it"
Its crazy when you read things that touched you so many years ago and you learn from them all over again! Another thing I found while packing was this little treasure trove below:
It is a box of hand written notes from friends from 8th grade and freshman year of high school. To read these is both hilarious and eye opening. The things you thought were sooo important and life altering at the age of 14 or 15 really turn out to be just distant memories. Sure, some of those experiences made me who I am today, but for the most part alot of those little drama filled episodes of my life didn't end up being that serious. Another life lesson my 15 year old self taught me...everything is relative. Another thing I want to say about this wonderful box of notes is how exciting it is to have these. To look at the words and hand writing and smiley faces my friends had written to me is priceless. I wonder what teenagers do today...do they still hand write notes or are they texting and emailing. I hope for there sake they at least print off some of those emails or texts and keep them for later. Its amazing what you can learn from your teenage self!!!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

A new year, new job, new apartment...

Welcome 2011!!!! I couldn't be more ready for you :) I recently read an idea on another blog site that some people do and it seems like a pretty cool thing. They write a letter to themselves to be opened the following New Year's Day. In the letter to themselves they write what they hope has happened to them by this time next year. For example...Dear Abby, You have done so much in this past year that you are proud of...the decision to change jobs has proven to be a great one..blah, blah. The idea sort of goes along with the Law of Attraction...putting your ideas and wants out in to the universe so they have a better chance of happening. I know it kind of sounds crazy, but I figure it can't hurt and plus it would be kind of cool to read this letter and see how I thought my life would be in another year. So anyway, I am currently working on that letter to myself and am debating on whether to post it on this blog...stay tuned. But i do encourage other people to give this a try...it might open some eyes as to what you are currently missing in your life that you never really thought too much about until you go to write it down.

An a side note...I hope 2011 will bring me more time to post on here. I have found it a little tricky to post on both here and http://www.skirt.com/ but i must find a way because I really don't want to neglect my personal blog!!! My hope is that I get back to doing it everydayor so and just talk about what I did that day and what random things I thought about...we will see.

On another side note (apparently I can't keep my thoughts organized tonight!) I hope everyone had an amazing New Year's Eve...I know I can't remember the last time I danced and laughed as much! I am soooo looking forward to 2011. As the title of this post says I have started a new job which I am soooo excited about, and my roomate/cousin/friend and I just put money down to move in to an amazing brand new apartment in DOWNTOWN Columbus. We are super excited about living there...the energy a city brings is so wonderful and exciting and we can't wait. I am personally excited to set up my little desk and get all Carrie Bradshaw on this blog!!! At any rate...I am going to continue working on this letter to myself and I hope you all are as excited for the new year as I am!!!! Here is a pic of some of us all dressed up and ready to DANCE!!!