Saturday, October 12, 2013

Saturday Ramblings

First…I want to thank everyone for the kind and encouraging comments concerning my last post about pregnancy…and how I don’t love it.  Reading that other people feel the same way as me makes me feel SO. MUCH. BETTER. So thank you!!!

And with that being said I have a few pregnancy updates for you.

I am officially 25 weeks…and don’t mind (or be jealous) that my phone case matches my outfit:

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I am officially starting to swell…and wear compression stockings. They seem to help for the most part, but those suckers are hotter than the hinges of hell!!!

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Last thing dealing with pregnancy…I passed my glucose test!!! For those that haven’t been pregnant or had to take this test, you basically drink this super sugary drink that tastes like flat orange pop and an hour later the nurse tests your blood to see if you were able to handle that sugar. If you fail, you might have gestational diabetes ( I think they make you re-take it again to make sure before they diagnose you).  Anyway, I passed…thank the good lord cause I love sugar, and if my body wasn’t able to handle it then this pregnancy really would get worse!!! I am so happy sugar is on my side…watch out candy corn, I am coming for you:)

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In other ramblings on this lovely Saturday…my husband gave me my birthday gifts early and because they are great I need to share them. He ordered them online and when they came early he couldn’t stand waiting to give them to me for another week, which I think is cute. At any rate here they are:

The first is a subscription to US Weekly!!!! I have been hinting to my family for what seems like the last 10 years that this would be a perfect gift…and easy. No one ever got it for me. I LOVE this stupid magazine and always want to buy it every single week, but control myself because it is so darn expensive without a subscription. Well now I will be so up to date on Hollywood gossip…and I CAN’T WAIT!!

The second gift is a super cool coffee table for our living room. The one we used to use Joe has had for a long time and it was old and on the verge of falling apart. For some reason I have a tendency to sit down at our couch and always pull the table closer to the couch so I can reach my food/drink/books/computer…I just need the table to be closer so I don’t have to reach. I especially do this now that I am prego cause it is so uncomfortable to bend over to reach anything. This annoys the crap out of Joe because I always forget to move the table back. I had mentioned getting a TV tray so that I could just use that, but he went one step further:

The beautiful coffee table ( I love the color too)

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And this, my friends is why my husband is amazing and this gift is so flipping cool:

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Yup…if pulls up toward to the couch so I don’t have to pull the entire table to me. It’s like a coffee table and a TV tray all in one. Who even knew they made this!?!?!

I am in love with this gift.

Have a good rest of your weekend!!!

Sunday, October 6, 2013

If I can just be honest…

Pregnancy has not been my favorite thing thus far. 

I feel guilty for even thinking that thought let alone putting it out there for all to read…but this post is all about being honest (so is my blog) and so I have to tell you a few things.

As long as I can remember there has always been the idea out there that I may never be able to have my own children. I have a heart condition that is hereditary and I have had since birth. Every year we would go to the cardiologist and get a check up and as I got older they seemed to caution more and more that pregnancy was the hardest thing on a women's body and heart, and it may be something my heart and body cannot withstand.

With that being said, when the doctors told me I should be ok getting pregnant I was obviously ecstatic…and a little nervous. My heart seems to be hanging in there…my body, on the other hand, seems to be hating pregnancy!

I am so thankful to have gotten pregnant as fast and easy as we did, I am so thankful that our baby girl seems to be doing great and is healthy…I am so thankful to have an amazing, supportive husband who has been beyond great during this pregnancy…I am so excited to meet our baby and am already so in love with her. 

BUT…

I do not like being pregnant. The things I had always heard about aren’t even the things that make me uncomfortable. Like, stretch marks…I could give two shits if I get them. I already have a few on my hips and seem to be getting more lately.  My belly seems in the clear right now, but honestly…if I get a few stretch marks on my stomach I am ok with that. Its not like I have string bikinis waiting to be worn again…or belly shirts. My tankini and full length shirts will cover any stretch marks I get and I am ok with that :)

Gingivitis/bleeding gums: WHAT??? I had never heard of this before but apparently it happens while pregnant….and my gums bleed like a stuffed pig every time I brush and especially when I floss, and they are sore.  FUN FUN.

My hips and lower back…I walk around like I am 80. It seriously takes me about 30 seconds every time I get up to let my hips stabilize before I start to walk, and even then that first step is super hit or miss whether or not pain will shoot thru my back.  Ugg.

Shaving my legs…starting to become a chore. Bending over for that long takes my breath away…things I never thought about…

My cankles…I mean ankles. At barely 24 weeks pregnant my lower legs, ankles and feet have started swelling. I had heard of this in my friends pregnancies, but it seems like they didn't have it until later in pregnancy. It is the worst…and my doctor prescribed me compression stockings (pictures later…maybe) so those should be fun to wear.

The one thing I was really looking forward to with pregnancy was to feel the baby kicking and moving…turns out I have an anterior placenta which means it is in the front and is like a sponge soaking up any movements so that I cannot feel them.  I will have to wait until she is much bigger and stronger before I will likely feel any movement…WORST! (whhhaaa, waaaaa, waaaaaaaaaaaaa)

I could keep going but you get the point…

I realize I sound like the biggest debbie downer but these are the things I think about all day so it is what I am going to write about.  It has taken me awhile to come to terms that it is ok for me to not like being pregnant.  Just because I don’t like it doesn't mean I am not excited about the baby, or love her.  I am really trying to embrace it and take it all in…it has just been so much harder than I had expected. I envy those women that think being pregnant is the best thing ever…I wish I felt that way, but I know it will all be worth it in the end. 

In just a couple of month we will have a beautiful baby girl and I know every stretch mark, random cry outburst, hip pain, foot swelling…it will all be worth it once I am holding her in my arms:)

A few pictures for your viewing pleasure:

I haven’t taken my 24 week picture yet (but I will)

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a few of the little precious outfits I have already bought.  I actually haven’t purchased many…probably because I can’t figure out how big she will be and I don’t want to waste money on things that won’t end up fitting her.

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Last thing…we got a puppy. Stay tuned for that entire story. 

6 months pregnant and a new puppy= CRAZY and EXHAUSTED